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Universal Force

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There's some moments in which I can just feel god.

(First let me add a disclaimer; I have never been a religious person, ever. I went to church on Christmas and Easter. God is the word I am using here to refer to the universal spirit whatever it is you may believe in any kind of higher power, I do not mean to promote or offend any type of organized religion here. Hell I still don't classify myself as anything or really know for sure what I believe in, But I do believe in something, something bigger than myself, and so for now I will refer to that something as god, because to me it feels most personal. )

There's some moments in which i can just feel god. I feel signs, I feel that there are absolutely without a doubt no coincidences in the world. I trust that the troubles I am put through are a part of the greater plan. I trust that there is some universal force working in my favor. The way that I happen to find a flight at less than 1/2 of the average flight to Indonesia as I got accepted into a world renown Acro Yoga program, not a coincidence. Now I seem to be just making it by with enough to make this trip really happen, even with all my indulging this year in celebrating, eating, Chicago, Florida, Vermont ect.

  • *Side note; when I say year I am referring to my birthday July 18th on. I've realized that my brain thinks of a year differently than Jan-Dec. because to me the whole winter is kind of the same.

Today I was thinking about how I set three goals for myself this "year" ; 1.To spread my teaching of yoga and message to more than one studio.
2. To travel to a country outside the US with a different language by myself.
And 3. To complete another teacher training or certification of some sort while I am not in school to show something for my year, preferably in Holistic health or yoga of some sort.
For the record, I am traveling to Indonesia on my own, completing an acro yoga certification 100hrs. ( I know,I know, I'm getting repetitive and you already know this if anyone's reading, forgive me I'm just very excited. ) and over the past year I have taught at The Zen Den, on the beach, to the ac high swim team, ItsWell Yoga in Wildwood, The JCC, Yoga Dog in Linwood, LivingWell Crossfit Northfield and Sunday I will be teaching a Yin Yoga Workshop at Stone Harbour Yoga!! **NOT TO LATE TO SIGN UP =)
Now allot of this is thanks to the 'SaltWater Yoginis' group started by myself, Lindsey Westcott, and Lindsey Salerno. I am eternally grateful for the birth of this trio for it has given me the confidence to branch out with two best friends by my side.
(Feel free to follow us on Instagram ; Saltwateryoginis and on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/SWYoginis )

Back to those goals. So I'm not sure exactly when I set them, if it was your typical January- December new year goal setting I would have missed the cut off since Indonesia is happening in February. Plus, last spring I was still in school, completing my training, and had no idea what I wanted this winter. I think I consider a year more like July to July. Or even just September to June. Where I live in Southern New Jersey, life sort of pauses during the summer time, well actually it speeds up incredibly. But what I mean is that there's not as much growth and change for me. It's always the same, we work, allot, and party, allot during our tourist season. I come back every summer to the beach patrol and people ask "how was your year?". They don't mean January to now, they haven't seen me since September. They don't give a shit about June, July and August, they were there for all of that. When they ask how was your year? They mean September -June. So I suppose that is the mindset I adopted. And in that sense, a year being September - June I am going to complete all of those goals.

For the entire fall I thought that my country I will travel to alone would be Costa Rica. At first I considered returning to Puerto Rico, Rin Con to be exact, and spending a winter there. But there were some cons to that plan, too many people from New Jersey, many connections, and Dad's friends, plus it is considered still in the US. You would think having connection would be a good thing, but to me, PR felt like settling and wasn't going to give me the experience I need to one day goto India alone, which is a plan for the future and part of the reason for this goal. Then I had my heart set on Costa Rica, so long story short all fall I've been studying Spanish. Which of course won't be helpful in Indonesia. Now, rather I will start learning one word a day in Indonesian Hoping that will help once I'm there. Today's word; taksu. Which is what the Balinese call gods energy. Known to Christians as the Holy Spirit, the Chinese as chi. The life force or energy. TAKSU.

So, Tonight my example of Taksu. I showed up to swim practice. Helping out with the AC High swim team since my old coach billy has been sick has been an enjoyable and rewarding experience. The girls invited me to their team dinner in brigantine . Now I love team dinners, so of course I accept. (Hoping that I would stick to more salad than pasta and skip the brownies and garlic bread. Kiiiind of worked ) We are tapering for a big meet Saturday and got done practice fairly early, so in the mean time I have two hours to kill in Atlantic City or Brigantine. Luckily I have brought my book I am currently reading, Eat Pray Love. I just got to the 'Pray' section last night where main character Liz goes to India to stay in an ashram and participate in hours of daily meditation. This inspired me to restart my own meditation practice which has fallen off a bit lately. Last fall, winter and spring I was quite diligent, but in summer I fell off with the fast paced tourism season, and this the fall picked back up again a bit but the holidays intervened with all the parties and sleeping out and what not .
So this morning I clear out my almost dusty meditation space, reorganize, burn some sage to clear the energy. Choose a daily yoga mantra. And sit. Although I had a bit of unconditioned monkey mind as you may call it, it felt good to take this time to myself before my day and get used to sitting again so that I hopefully keep up this practice while traveling.
I used to avoid restarting my meditation practice because I felt guilty for ever stopping it, it brought me shame looking at that unused altar. But today I thought to myself. One more day with meditation is better than nothing, and I don't think god ever closes his door on you. No in fact, he's very happy to have me back knocking at his door and will always open for me. And so I sat.
And here I am again sitting in my car In Brigantine. While driving here I had noticed a side street with a beautiful view of the bay with the casinos in the background and some marshes, snow, and boats. So I parked my car there as I saw the sun slowly start to dip and thought, I have an hour until sunset this will be there perfect place to watch it. I took a picture with my I phone then laid in my back seat reading more about Liz in India. All of a sudden about an hour later I heard a knocking on my car door, like someone was playing a trick on me. I thought maybe it was stones hitting my car or an animal but felt alarmed and got up to check, just then I saw the sky. The most beautiful Sunset I have watched in a while, filling in the sky around the casinos with pink, orange, blue , yellow. I had caught it just in time. The pictures do it no justice, but here they are anyway.

I got out and looked around my car but didn't see any stones, animals or people. So I snapped another picture of this beautiful sky canvas , and thanked god for knocking back.

Posted by rachaelob 19:10 Archived in USA Tagged landscapes sunset indonesia meditation god yoga faith believe new_jersey goals eat_pray_love stone_harbor_yoga

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